I know every person in this world might have their own problems.
including me, i know that i had a very big problems in controlling myself. I can't control my anger or even my great confidence.
It's weird and bothers not only me, but also my family and friends.
Right now i may feel sad, hopeless, depressed, worthless, and tired. Don't want to meet with anyone, regret my past, and feel reckless.
But at the other time, or maybe tomorrow, i would be a totally different person. I will feel happy, my mind full of positive thoughts that i want to do in the future, want to do a lot of things at the same time, very positive, but i will become more sensitive than usual. I can't accept when someone give me an advice.
I just wanna do all the things by myself and no one can disturb me for what i did.
I also had a problem with my sleeping time. Sometimes i don't need to sleep anymore, but still feel energized all day long. But sometimes i also wanna sleep all day, and still tired.
I think that i can't be like this, it's not healthy for my body and mind. And also my mom who always been upset to me for being so negative and couldn't control my anger.
I'm so sorry to everyone that know me for a long or even a short time and get annoyed for what i did.
I regret everything, although i don't actually know why i did those things. I just feel, worthless right now. I'm sorry, i feel like i always wrong in every way. I know i should end up these thoughts in my mind. But it's not that easy. I can't.
Oh, and i don't really like to get much attention in public. Because i never want to be the center of attention. But yes, i need trusts from all the people that i loved. Like my parents, and my best friends. Because i love them more than how i'm trying so hard to love myself.
*insert smiley face here*
